Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Element

If talking isn't a pleasure to one, writing should be the one. Everyone should express oneself in ways that do not harm others. That's my personal belief. Let's talk about Programming. This activity called Programming really isn't what i used to thought it is. I thought it is an activity that would allow me to manipulate things and being the privileged one that could access to something others would not have rights to do. It is partially true but to add more meaning to this activity, it is how a Programmer will need to squeeze the brain juice just to think of a perfect solution at the point of creating a Program, part by part, with helping the end users in mind.

This is no simple task at all, it is an honorable thing to do. I began to realize how much sacrifices are needed to be a good programmer. Skill really doesn't fall from the sky. It surely takes practices and time to think and to sharpen the AXE of programming. Since in life, we couldn't manipulate humans, in programming it at least could satisfy the need to manipulate things. How things could go if you know the way to do it, and there are always better ways. Choices and choices to make, and just mirroring the philosophy of life. LOOP is one thing many people do in life. I just want to skip the loop and get into a healthier loop that could change my life. What the method and function needed to achieve this? Would you be my element? I truly wish that an element like you could live on forever..........

How could i be your element? I know it isn't easy. I just have to think through during the sleepless nights.

Well, good night, my element.

Lie Not

It's a quarter after one and i need you now. You wonder if you ever crossed my mind? It happens all the time. Been thinking about the phrase " honesty is the best policy" but it doesn't work in Sales. It doesn't always work that way. I don't used to lie. I can proudly say that i seldom lie and during times that i need to lie, i would just prefer to remain silent and keep my mouth shut. Rather than spit out lies that would hurt my soul and betray other souls.

No matter how honest one person could be, there's always lies been told in the process of growing up until we reach a stage and realized lie doesn't make do with an honorable life one could have. For me, i think that human race really shouldn't lie, i know i sound corny here but why should one lies to one and another and keep making mental note to oneself that we must remember what we said in order not to be exposed about our insincerity that we have to hide something from another human, even though it was from a good standpoint. Many people may argue that they lied for good and it is always better if someone didn't know about something. Even so, there really isn't a need to lie. We should just avoid the topic instead of telling lies.

Not that i haven't been lied that i still hold such firm stance about not lying even when it is needed, i just think it would be a vicious cycle if we chose so to lie to the dearest one or loved ones. it isn't fair to everyone. Lie doesn't make you feel good. Just not the thing for me. I have seen liars' faces, they don't look good at all, as if i could see a wolf or fox beneath their human masks. What is the point of living a life full of lies when you are going into the coffin one day and all the people who knew you remember nothing real about you but the lies. You get noted for things that do not belong to you, deep down you just know that. No matter how hard you tried to make yourself believe you are good. Conscience is something human cannot get rid of one way or another.

Here i make my vouch to not to lie to my dearest and loved ones including family members, relatives, friends, and of course the dearest to my heart. You may not know it, but you took a whole lot of weight in my heart, that's why my heart always sink because of you.
Forgiveness is also important in the process of learning not to lie. After all, lie is one Mass Destruction Weapon, if we love peace, we shall stay away from it.
1.04 凌晨。。。。。你回到家了。。。。。我却。。。。。
还在担心。。。。。。

不太知道为什么
away的妳。。。。。。怎么回到家了。。。。。。

我被你骗了。。。。。。。。。

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Sunday, October 31, 2010

your road tax?

no, it's my pay slip

your road tax not july/august?

it's october...

vivien already passed to me...

thx ah..

thx for your egg...

no need la..just pass by...

bye..
bye...
感谢你送的茶叶蛋,高兴能正面看着你,可是你却不望我。。。

听见你的声音那么的累。。。我还能怎样呢

'no need la, just passed by" 那么的微弱。。。和悲哀。。。到底怎么了。。。我真后悔挂线。。。

你怎么不把心事将我告诉。。。。。。。

我的耳朵是为你而开的

我的心是为你而跳动的吧。。。。。。

有点不敢相信。。。
我爱到无言。。。

悲伤到麻木。。。

我不懂得爱。。。